I was out for a walk. I had my Airpods in with music blasting to drown out the outside noise, but I was focused on the game I was playing on my phone. A few songs had already played without me paying attention until a few words from one particular song caught my attention and stopped me in my tracks. “But I know these waves will crash over me, but I’ll have faith”. I instantly switched to the music app to see the song and view the lyrics. The song was “Waves” by Blake Proehl. As I read the lyrics, I was immediately brought to tears. I hit replay and gave myself a moment to get myself together because I was not the only person where I was.
Music does have a way of speaking to the soul. These past months have been rough for me. Waves. That is the perfect description to capture the whirlwind of emotions assaulting my body. There are days like today when everything seems normal, and then I get hit with a reminder, and everything comes crashing back. You know when you’re on a beach, standing in the ocean, and a big wave comes in and crashes into you? That is how some of my days are.
I have been deep in prayer and putting my trust and faith in God because I know this is all a part of my journey. He is preparing me for something good. Whenever I have these thoughts, a feeling of calm wraps me in its arms, and I am comforted in knowing that God has my back and means me well. However, this does not mean that all my worries are suddenly gone. As you can see from this post so far, I have moments where I feel defeated and lost, as if I am drowning. I tell myself that having these feelings is ok and give myself time to feel and process. In these moments, I rely heavily on my faith and pray that God will get me through. You see, in moments when we are most vulnerable, it is so easy for us to lash out and curse at God. The devil wants us to do that. I can’t allow him to distract me from God’s purpose for me. So, I pray.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11. I try to remember this Bible verse in moments of doubt and confusion. God is my strength, and with His help, I will get through this season.
Grief comes in waves. It has its ups and downs, just like life. No one can put a timeline on when you should start to get over what you have been through. Like a ship on a stormy ocean, ride the waves until the storm passes. Through it all, remember that God is the vessel’s captain, and with Him at the helm, we can make it through any storm.
My walk today was more than just a routine activity; it was a profound reflection and emotional release. The song “Waves”, pierced through my distractions, echoing the tumultuous journey I’ve been on these past months. Life’s challenges often feel like relentless waves crashing over me, but in these moments of vulnerability, I find solace in my faith. Turning to prayer and scripture, anchors me, reminding me of God’s plans for my future. Though grief and hardship come in waves, I believe that with God as my guide, I will navigate through the stormy seas and find peace. Just as the waves are a part of the ocean, these trials are a part of my journey, shaping me and preparing me for the good ahead.
Until next time,
Abby
